Loves Of My Life

When I was young I always dream about happenings of my life
Good and bad dreams when the time is ripe
Now that I am old I believe that my illusions came true
For sometimes dreams cannot be out of the blue

Let me tell you what I am talking about
Even though my life have so many doubts
My life is not as miserable as a lawless person
Who always do bad things even without reasons

I maybe selfish but only stingy to my love
Nourishing it like a freshly gaze of sunlight above
But all my love has left me with a broken heart
Leaving me tormented and torn me apart

My First love when I was at the age of five
She was a muse in our school healthy parade drive
I was the prince charming of that activity
Her attire actually matches her beauty

What a strange feeling I felt at that moment
When she looked at me I always keep silent
But she was taken away after the games
I didn’t even know her name

My Second love has a funny story
My friends always tease me
I’m usually absent during the first days of class
For I’m so shy when she and her friends amass

Months pass as I keep thinking of her
Suddenly I spoiled myself in laughter
For my friends and I had discover
That she wanted the same girl as her lover

Then I met this intelligent looking girl
I liked her hair that was curl
Her face was blooming like a pearl
This makes my eyes swirl

I was so shy to even talk to her
My friends told me it would be easier
If it wasn’t for her friends around
I would see her alone in the compound

I really don’t know why I am like this
There’s so many opportunity that I missed
How can I overcome the shy I feel?
All I wanted is for my feelings to reveal

The class season was nearly at end
I promised to talk to her at the last weekend
How unfortunate because I was sick
It just made my brain chaotic

Since that incident I never saw her again
I wanted to see her but I didn’t know where to begin
Long lost love of my life
Cuts my heart like a knife

New class season has begun
Shadows of the past has yet to overcome
But since my love has long gone
I finally took steps to move on

My fourth love I met months before graduation day
She was not beautiful but she’s okay
But my classmate likes her also
And he keeps touching her cheeks and elbow

I’m so jealous that I wanted to punch him
But I don’t want my love to think that I’m grim
So I behaved with utmost caution
Hoping to get her attention

On graduation day my relatives teases me
Why I had courted so badly
Well I never courted anybody
For my actions were very clumsy

When class graduation was over
My mouth remains falter
I did not say what I wanted to say
Until my love vanished by walking away

I have learned a lot in elementary
That I have to act a little bravely
I need to focus my mind clearly
So that my heart will not be empty

This is not the end of this chronicle
But a beginning of a new struggle
A struggle within inside of me
Hoping to get free from this adversary

My enemy is my heart and my brain
Who opposes each other that drive me insane
My heart likes to reveal the word
But my brain likes to keep it inward

I hope that these two will unite
So that I maybe alright
As of now I just want to rest my pen
It will write again, I just don’t know when